July 30th, 2007 08:18 am (UTC)
Back in 2001 / 2002 (not sure exactly when), I found your website while looking for an old friend of mine by the same name. I saw pictures of your adorable tot, Maya, and read the story of your pregnancy and Maya's birth. (That site no longer seems to be in existence, did you shut it down?).
Well, I just started blogging here at livejournal and was looking for said friend again and SURPRISE! Up pops your blog! If that isn't coincidence, I don't what is. I was pleasantly surprised to read that your family is now bigger, and was shocked at how much Maya has grown. The last pictures I saw of her showed her an adorable, blonde tot. Not a tot anymore, but quite the big girl, eh?
I also read about Priti's loss, my condolences to her. I had three miscarriages before I delivered my daughter in June, 2005. The pregnancy with her was terrifying. I was pregnant with twins and lost one of them at 11/12 weeks. The placenta had developed a huge clot and well... I don't want to go into a graphic description of how bad it was, but I was on bed rest for the entire pregnancy. I refused to choose a name for the baby, or have a Seemantham or even buy clothes for her until she was safely here. I was terrified that I'd jinx the pregnancy and lose her, too.
She's two now, and I am waiting for her to talk. It's been a long and arduous journey, trying to have her, but she's more than made up for the wait with her sunny smiles and loving personality.
I don't think the pain / memory of a child's loss - even an unborn child's - ever really go away but it seems to soften with time. Every time the due dates of my other children rolls around, I'm a teary mess. The sight of twins hurts me, too. My daughter will probably be an only child and I use to rage at God for robbing her of a sibling but even though I too hate that saying, everything DOES happen for a reason - a reason I cannot fathom just yet, but a reason that will eventually become self-evident in the years to come.
Good to 'hear' from you again. I'm looking f/w to following your blog henceforth and promise not to be just be a lurker and an anonymous reader - unless you object, :-)