May 18th, 2005

Pink fairy

Someone calm me down!

Ok, I need to learn to take it easy on myself. I put so much pressure on myself to do things and do them right, that I end up making things into such a big deal and procrastinating and then just getting overwhelmed. That leads to me not doing anything and then getting mad at myself for that! And then of course I take it out on others, most the kids, mostly Maya because she's older. Then I get them into bed and start to really hate myself for what a bad mother I have become. Don't get me wrong, I don't abuse them or anything like that, but I'm not "the best mom in the world", even though Maya still says it. She's such a forgiving child. I don't know where she learned that from, certainly not from me. I hope she keeps it up though, it is much easier going through life forgiving and letting things go than holding on to them like I do.

Ok, gotta go. Kids need me.
Pink fairy

When it rains, it pours...

Well, great. Maya has hand, foot and mouth disease! UGH It sounds worse than it is, really. Starts with a fever and general loss of appetite. Then you get blisters in your mouth (which makes it hard to eat) and then bumps on your hands and feet. It is a virus, so there's nothing that can be given to help. Apparently she got it from school because it is going around, I heard. Sheesh. We travel around the world for the last two months and we finally get home and that's where she gets sick. Poor baby. I just hope and pray that Nadia doesn't get it too, but that's pretty unlikely. *sigh*

So much for me being able to get anything done around here for the next few days.
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